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Well, I'm feeling anxious, guilty, and [...] a little bit afraid. None of those things really lend themselves to rationality or relaxing. I don't know about you.
I've been running through different permutations of what we could've done to prevent this from happening, and eliminating the options that are far too improbable or otherwise deeply untrue to our motivations. You know my conclusion already. [...] Despite that, I keep thinking about it.
Are you afraid she won't wake up, or something else?
Are you afraid she won't wake up, or something else?
I hate to have to tell you this, but I think you're describing guilt.
[...] Yeah. Or that even when she does wake up this will all have [...] fucked her life up somehow, I don't know.
[...] Yeah. Or that even when she does wake up this will all have [...] fucked her life up somehow, I don't know.
That might be [...] doesn't sound like me at all. I argue this is actually preemptive annoyance at the people who will say "I told you so" over encouraging a teenager to apply for an internship, and I'm seeking an ironclad argument as to why they're wrong.
I think she'd probably find the side effects fascinating. If she wakes up.
I think she'd probably find the side effects fascinating. If she wakes up.
Did you try saying that out loud?
No "ifs". I'm being optimistic.
No "ifs". I'm being optimistic.
[.....] Fine. You're right. It's guilt. We have nothing to be guilty about, but it seems I am experiencing guilt.
Why not go all the way, then? Enodia houses some of the best scientists and doctors in the world. Surely we'll find a way for her to walk out of here and return to her normal life.
Why not go all the way, then? Enodia houses some of the best scientists and doctors in the world. Surely we'll find a way for her to walk out of here and return to her normal life.
Yeah, it's a lot easier to deal with it when you actually did something wrong. Sorry.
You can't logic mine away either.
You can't logic mine away either.
[...] Fine. But Can I call y
After Gavin died, I didn't know what to say to you. I didn't even know if you'd want to talk to me. And then while you were gone for the funeral, I realized I didn't want to be with you anymore. But it felt wrong to break up with you when you'd just lost your brother, and I knew I wouldn't be able to act like things were normal, so I kept putting it off. And then it had been a week. And you'd clearly gotten the message.
After Gavin died, I didn't know what to say to you. I didn't even know if you'd want to talk to me. And then while you were gone for the funeral, I realized I didn't want to be with you anymore. But it felt wrong to break up with you when you'd just lost your brother, and I knew I wouldn't be able to act like things were normal, so I kept putting it off. And then it had been a week. And you'd clearly gotten the message.
I am. I wanted to tell you, but most of the time I feel like I should just leave you alone. [...] Which I can go back to doing, if you want.
I've gotten [...] some amount of sleep in the last 48 hours. But that's mostly my own fault.
How are you doing? I heard your group wasn't handling the heat too well.
How are you doing? I heard your group wasn't handling the heat too well.
THAT'S right. you've only got one body. gotta get the most use out of it while you can.
had the epiphany that I could probably manage being a part timer at a daycare if this whole super nature boy thing falls through. we got precariously close to a chain vomit situation and I didn't even panic.
[...] how much space in your brain do you have for weird, potentially uncomfortable information at the moment?
had the epiphany that I could probably manage being a part timer at a daycare if this whole super nature boy thing falls through. we got precariously close to a chain vomit situation and I didn't even panic.
[...] how much space in your brain do you have for weird, potentially uncomfortable information at the moment?
There is honestly nothing you could say to me right now that would make my mental state worse than it already is.
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